In my quest to shake off my addiction to spending money, I’ve been doing my best to analyze my triggers and patterns that result in spending. There’s definitely a correlation between not being as organized as I’d like to be and how much money I spend. No, it’s not the sole reason or even the lion’s share, but I can confidently say money gets frittered due to my struggles with being organized with my time and my space.
- I haven’t banked enough time on the weekends to cook food in large batches; I might have to resort to buying a lunch out whilst at work. A money-spending situation that could have been avoided
- I didn’t wake up early enough so I didn’t have time to make coffee at home (we only have an espresso machine, so no timer) so I grab one on my way to the subway. Money that could have stayed in my pocket
- Didn’t check out any cool free events in the city when planning a night out with old friends and resulted in a last minute going to the bar where I contributed to the apps and snacks ordered. I could have avoided that if we went to a free performance I checked out earlier
- New clothes. This has always been my weakness, but if I had an efficiently organized closet where I can see all my things and gain the most use out of them, it’d be even more obvious to me that purchasing more is simply not necessary and that I have more than enough to suit my needs
Besides the ones listed above, there have been so many situations where I could have avoided spending money if I was more organized.
I wanted to delve deeper. I know I need to be more organized, but it’s not a matter of not knowing how to go about it, it’s about how I haven’t been putting in the work required to do it. After long days of the office we all are prone to fatigue, so re-organizing my closet doesn’t sound as good as laying on the couch with a book, and batch cooking for the rest of the week when there’s enough food in the fridge to fulfill my immediate needs isn’t as pressing as studying for my course.
So why am I so fatigued, to the point I’m finding it hard to stay organized and always plan ahead? Could it be that this is a vicious cycle – I’m too tired to organize my stuff because my energy is always too sapped from owning too much stuff? Let’s go even further – am I not sleeping well at night worrying about all the debt I’ve accumulated by buying too much … stuff?
I think the root issues to why I’ve felt powerless to stopping the spending cycle are becoming more clear. I’ve written about how my weakness for clothes and beauty supplies comes from not feeling good enough as I am, so to cut that issue off at the root I need to work on my confidence. I’m learning that my sapped energy is related to being disorganized which comes from owning too many things; so besides not buying any stuff, it’s imperative I need to dump a lot of my things and work on organizing my space. I’ve already cut off contact with the spendthrift friends that like to blow all their money on food and drink, so I don’t have the peer pressure to waste my money on food and booze anymore. What’s left is me and the decisions I make from this point forward. It’s time to take care of my roots.