I am seventeen days in to my No Spend April challenge.
These first week reminded me of this yoga pose called Pigeon Pose that always gave me initial grief, followed by an odd sense relief. The first bit feels doable, and then swiftly becomes horribly uncomfortable. Then a painful, almost tingling/burning feeling sets in to your muscles as you contort them into a position they are not familiar with, and they quiver and twitch to adjust. Then that sensation of being exposed to something so hot it turns into a numbing cold – you know the one – sets in, and you start screaming in your head that you can’t take it anymore. Then suddenly, you reach a breaking point where everything feels eerily great and it’s bizarre that it does, because you know you’re technically engaged in a position completely foreign to you and if you move even a half inch the pain might set back in, but it also feels … really nice. You realize you can do this, you almost can’t believe that such intense pain has led to this almost sublime feeling, and you start thinking you can hang out in this pose for a while. That, my friends, is days 1 to 11 of No Spend April.
This challenge has given me a very unexpected and also very liberating sense of freedom. No more agonizing over if I should spend or not. No more calculating my balances as nothing is going out. I used to stare at my debt balances every couple of hours, as if I was harbouring a secret hope that they would miraculously disappear if I checked in on them just one more time, and then again one more time, and again one more time…. My thoughts are now completely released from all the time I spend wondering what to buy, no more hunting, no more justifying and no more guilt over the push and pull of to buy or not to buy. This is freedom. This is lucidity.
This challenge gave me the permission and access to fully plunge myself in all other aspects of my life, entirely unfettered. I am free to fully be at work, free to be accessibly present when with family and my partner, concentration at the task at hand without any other demands on my mental space.
I wonder if this is what life is like for people without shopping addiction. They’re just free to be present in their social settings, to study, to work out, to cook dinner, to work, and just be engaged without this lingering storm cloud of should I or shouldn’t I? I can just be free. The path has been chosen. I’m not sitting forever at the fork in the road, but bounding forward in my chosen path.
To get to the cold hard facts of this challenge, at seventeen days in, I have spent a total of $42.27, and that was all on groceries. I contribute $50 a week to my household grocery budget, so I’m actually under budget by about $58 bucks. I thought about not including this cost because necessary bills aren’t part of my No Spend Challenge (and I consider groceries a necessary bill, one that I budget for) but I would be remiss if I claimed I’ve spent zero dollars so far.
So what does the day-to-day look like on a No Spend Challenge for a
recovering former spendaholic, that seemed to not be able to function without spending? A lot of prep work. I haven’t bought food from a restaurant or shop in months, but now I meticulously plan snacks (to avoid any last minute purchases of a banana or nut bar) and brew at home coffee to take with me every day (I miss you, Starbucks tall blonde roast!!). I’ve thrown myself into studying for the CFP designation, and I’ve been visiting my mom more often. I’ve also been side-hustling by selling unwanted items on Craigslist, and have been lucky enough to be called in for some on-call bartending work (which I haven’t done since university!) which I am stupendously grateful for – tips plus making money vs. spending money on weekends makes me a happy lady.
There have been some hurdles, however. Besides the initial ‘spending pangs’ I had while weaning myself off of frittering a little here and a little there (usually coffee, snacks, ice cream cone on the few warm days we’ve had) I haven’t really seen many people socially. I’ve had two friends come visit me at the library where I’ve been logging study time, and gosh knows I appreciate them coming by. I doubt it was their ideal way to socialize on a weekend so I don’t know how sustainable a socializing option that is. I went to a couple fam-jams over the long weekend where I brought bottles of wine purchased with gift cards I got over the holidays – now I wonder how long I can keep up that option until the gift cards run out. I also didn’t mean to keep on my blog, but I’ve been avoiding the internet in general to keep any kind of temptation low, as online shopping is one of my weaknesses. These are some areas I’m going to have to learn to work with if I want to carry on another No Spend Month, or embark on a No Spend Year. I’m toying with the idea of side-gig cash be my “free money” and maintain a “dollar out, dollar in” rule to be my budget, but I’m still sitting with this idea for now.
Has anyone else seen success with a No Spend Challenge before?